Hi,

I'm the one who wrote Secret #557.

One of the comments makes me want to confess another thing about me.

I sounded like I am a sad person inside the post. You'de be surprised to know the me outside.

Sadness and depression was words that people never connect to me. To them , I am a valedictorian, the girl who never gives up. The girl who never judges.

In truth, I am a calculative person. First impression is always deep in my mind. I hate it when people said I am smart, I can do anything, even when they meant well. It indirectly shuns me from feeling being among the crowd.

I know it's hypocrite, but that's what I need to do to survive. It is a lie about people will accept just who you are, or be yourself.

Once, I deeply trust a person, so I showed and acted my real self in front of her. All of a sudden, she avoided me like I'm some kind of a disease, even advising her friends not to go near me.

No, I did not do illegal stuff, drugs, alcohol, never go out unless for official reasons (school or family).

Maybe some will advice me to change. If I change wouldn't it just be faking myself? Changing who you are does not constitute yourself.

Besides, everyone is happy and satisfied mingling with the fake me. Maybe that's a sacrifice I had to live with.