aku dah naik menyampah dengan one of my collegue. she's such a spoilt brat! klu ada projek baru, surely aku kena team up dgn dia and few others utk handle projek tu. masalahnya dia selalu mengelak utk buat part dia and bagi org lain yang buat. alasan? dia selalu mengadu kat SEMUA orang kt ofis pasal kisah silam dia. dia anak yatim, abah dia meninggal since she was a little girl. so when her mother remarried, the stepfather turned out to be a bastard yang selalu pukul dia and her mom.

so when she told the whole office her sob stories, some of them selalu rasa simpati. and when she cannot do something, she blamed it on her background, that she was stressed, she's suffering from chronic depression and related shits. as for me, i just think she's one hell of a drama queen. when i asked her to do her part, dia akan melenting. kata aku selalu push dia.

hello? klu tak push, ada kau siapkan keja tu? keja aku delayed sbb part ko terbengkalai tau? bila aku cakap camtu, dia kata dia taleh jadi cam aku, so calm, pull together and perfect. i'm not like her and i can't understand her situation because i came from a a happy family. now, am i to blame that my family is a happy one? oh, jadi aku boleh kena tindas la sbb family aku happy? klu camni aku pun nak family pecah belah cam dia!

then somebody else in my team asked me to 'help' her a bit. at first i don't mind doing some of her work because i guess i can learn something also. but the keyword here is 'some'. ini semua benda nak push kt aku, then claim dia yg wat semua, apa kes? bila aku tolak, team mate aku kata aku takde team work spirit. team work spirit is when we help EACH OTHER out. bukan lepaskan sorang supaya org len blh amik alih keja dia.

tapi aku tak sangka she had the nerve utk mengadu kt project manager yang aku tak tolong dia and not showing teamwork spirit! how dare she! bila project manager panggil aku, my first impulse was to screamed at her but that would not help things a bit. so i just calmly said to my manager, "i'd be glad to do that, but my expertise is in this part and i intent to do that excellently. i fear that if i do two things simultaneously, it would affect the quality of my work. i'd rather do ONE work and do it excellently rather than doing TWO works but the result is mediocre". tapi dlm hati.. HELLO? aku yang buat keja, tapi aku yang takde teamwork spirit? what the fucking hell???

aku rasa manager aku still nak backup perempuan ni so aku cakap that i will send full report of my progress to the director, baru perempuan ni nampak gugup sikit. yela, klu aku hantar progress report, akan nampak part dia tader progress langsung! masa ni aku dh mmg berani mati. mls aku nak ikut orang lain manjakan perempuan ni sangat.

tapi masalahnya, satu ofis macam pulaukan aku sekarang sbb aku 'too mean towards this poor girl'.

i love my job. i really do. aku tanak berenti keja sbb office politics ni tapi aku betul2 dh menyampah dgn perempuan tu!