Secret #557
Dear SecretSaya,
I am someone who says she's not interested in love. Earlier, I am that kind of girl. However, that didn't keep me from getting curious about interested about it once in a while. And now, most of the time, but that's a skeleton in my closet.
I am losing hope, especially about guys. I don't think I found anyone that I doesn't find less than 5 faults. I know you would say wait and one day he will come, but with the males, boys or men, that I observe day by day, I'm starting to think it is a lost cause.
Besides that, I actually think I don't deserve to have one. I'm not pretty, I am not exactly nice, because sometimes I'm blatantly honest, I'm a death reaper ( plants and animals die in my hands within a week, ask them in their graves). And don't people usually say pets symbolises their owners? Most of my female pets were infertile, sterile. I think I probably too, which is bad because I would like to have kids.
I feel like dying as a spinster.
2 comment(s)
A black.dahlia commented @ 5:01 pm 25-05-09
i can relate to you. but don't be too negative to confront the world. you have to be positive and always be cheerful. orang cheerful ni ada 'aura' yang buatkan orang nak kawan dengan dia, no matter how plain you are.
sebab tu orang yg kelakar and happy-go-lucky lebih byk kawan dari org yg grumpy. ini adalah kerana org happy project the 'come-be-friends-with-me-i-won't-bite-you-i-promise' aura while the grumpy one was... not.
so just be happy, and people will be attracted to you.
A anonymous commented @ 8:46 pm 24-05-09
hi there.. i feel sad to read your confession.. but i do hope that u dont lose hope in guys.. in love.. i know u'd prolly hate it whenever someone says the time will come.. coz sometimes for some people, it will prolly never come.. my advice is try as much as u can to have some faith.. and while u wait, steer ur focus n attention to something else.. perhaps.. work.. family.. studies.. try not to dwell ur thots onto this matter too much.. okay.. :)