Secret #512
I feel really bad right now. Shit!
I fought with my dad. It was a about my sis and my course that I'm doing now in college. My sis is kinda person who is very quiet and she doesn't like to inform where she is exactly and what plan that she wants to do. She goes by her own and I totally respect that because I understand how she feels and everything. Been there,done that. So my dad keeps on bugging me regarding her on my finals week. Man,can imagine.. Calling me 10 minutes once just to ask about her. I got pissed and just listened to what he said. Being me is like accept whatever people say,do not object and let it. So i was "being me" with my dad. Then i asked bout my course. I wanted to change it 3 semester back but he didn't allow it. And so he nagged bout my course. Blablablabla.. As if i desperately need that. Soon after i hung up,my friend asked what happen. And i suddenly cursed my dad in front of him. When i say curse, it means real curse. I cursed my dad with inappropriate words aka dirty and bad words. He's was like my enemy and i cursed like I've never cursed anyone before. And this morning,my dad called. He said something that made me feel so guilty. He was like, "I understand ur situation,studying the course that u don't even like. I thought this course might be really helpful in long term for u. I wanted u to change but this is ur last semester. I know i should have said this in the beginning but I'm sorry. I didn't know it would be a problem to u. The choice of ur degree is in ur hands now. Make a good decision"
Shit right? After i cursed him like hell. I feel so guilty and crushed after hearing of what he said. I thought he was the most cruel dad but here i go,I'm the worst daughter ever exist on earth. Should i just apologize and tell him the truth?
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A happy ruffendz commented @ 4:11 pm 19-12-08
tak leh jugak ckp mcm tue..sume tue rezeki dari die..
not everyone lucky like u dahlia..not everyone can score something they dont like..
and everyone make mistake no matter how big the mistake it is.."sorry" is the best thing u can do aite?
A black.dahlia commented @ 4:47 pm 16-12-08
haih... let's be practical here. i know you are guilty and all, but telling ur dad u just called him dickhead won't help the situation. (albeit AFTER you apologize to him).
I've been in the situation before and i know it sucks. Tak leh tido malam ok. To apologize and admit my faults was like... feeding my head to a bunch of hungry lions. or in other words, better commit suicide than telling him i just mencarut sbb akhirnya consequence nye still sama.
eh jap. kt mana aku tadi.
oh ye. for this matter, just let your wealth of love guide you. As for me, I study really hard and i scored well and tell him that's my way to apologize to him.
i hate the course i took but guess what, i secured a VERY nice job then. Takde masalah pun. Klu aku ikutkan ati and amek course yg aku minat, tah2 jd pelukis jalanan je aku ni.
A happy ruffendz commented @ 12:16 pm 14-12-08
so u wanna keep it in your heart? u wanna feel guilty ress of your life?
sis..atleast do something that show u feel sorry bout that..just say "dad im sorry for the last night" and im sure ur dad understand it..coz ur dad love u..
give a try..tak salah pown kan?
A out of her mind! She teDDy commented @ 12:13 am 14-12-08
Like... Howwww??
U want me to say
"Hey dad,i cursed u really bad few days back about sis n my course. I'm sorry. And i actually used fuck,idiot,moron,asshole,crazy dick,babi,bodoh only few times. Sorry yeah."
Like that? Man,i wish i didn't curse him so that this guilt that burdened on my shoulder are gone..... I'm sorry,dad.
A happy ruffendz commented @ 11:50 pm 13-12-08
apologize is batter than do nothing rite?
let by gone be by gone yaw.. :P