Secret #193
Unique....
i think this is the best place i can tell about my feeling...worries n anything....
i also have my own problem...many problem actuallly...but i think i want to tell about this....
i have a feeling for a guy since i 10 years old until i met my boyfriend last year(now i'm 21)...giler kan....haha..ak xpena ckp pun ak suke dier n ak xtau ap feeling dier t'hdp ak..it made me think...whats so good about him..dia biasa je..xla macho..gelap lak 2..but i think,.dier ni sweet..ak gelar dier mr.k..i knew mr.k n we become closed coz i'm a new transfer student in standard 4 n also seat beside him..diala org plg baik n rpt sjk ak pndh.. after upsr, we never meet n contact until tahun ak amik spm...tahun 2,my sis gtau mr.k tny ttg ak...yg bestnyer,dia tau ak dok kat klas mn...hemm...tau2 je..mstila hepi kan..pas abis spm 2,ak t'serempak ngan dier time amik adk kat skola lame...x sngka dier ad kat c tu(mcm jodoh je..haha)...patut r ak tgk sorg student pompuan 2 mcm muke mr.k ni...rupe2nyer...little sis dier..tp x smpt tnjk muke n tegor coz ustaz tgh b'tny kabar ngan ak..huhu...pas 2 x jmpe lg...pas last sem matrik, ak jumpe dier face 2 face...cam x caye je...ni soma kwn ak punyer kwn yela schoolmate mr.k.2 pun kjp je....x smpt amik contact no...pas 2 senyap je...n ak ttp setia la konon tggu dier..kwn ak kate ak nii setia x b'tempat(ad btlnya jgk...tp peduli ap..)..ape2 p'kembangan dier ak mmg tau la coz best fren dier yela kwn baik ak gak....
pas 2 ak knl ngan sorg mamat nii...my bf now..ak pun try lupekn mr.k 2...tp ak x lupe la dier...ak anggap mr.k ni kwn zmn ak kecik2 dl..lgpun ak dpt tau dier da ad gf..ak br knl bf ak ni dkt 1 tahun...mula2 2 ok je...tp since 3 bulan lps ktorg da x contact...problem ak nii yela bf buat bodoh...senyap je....ak xtau nak assume ktorg da break@x...kadang2 tu stress gak fikir...xtau ap problem sebenar..sblm nii ok je...tiba2 jd camni...ak pena tny klu da x suke break je...tp xla ak tny direct to the point...ak bg hint je...tp dia jwb...dier tgh bz skang...before ni pun ak tny kabar,dier kata bz...bz...bz...
da la 2..kwn yg ak pecaya slama nii n baik ngan dia slama nii rupa2 nya sorg x jujur...mksud ak x jujur dlm psahabatan ktorg....sedih gak la....kwn yg kt pecaya rupa2nya b'pura2 baek ngan kite...tp ak anggap je xda ap2 b'laku...kwn yg ak rapat pun x dpt detect ak sebenarnya ad problem....pelikkan ak nii....tp dlm hati sedih n kecewa...huhu...
~ tommorow is different from today....n i hope tomorrow will be better than today......~
(~sadteddy perosak bahasa~)
lega skit pas luahkan...=)
7 comment(s)
A childish sadteddy commented @ 8:34 pm 01-02-08
thanx soma....i really appreciate ur advice....
to comot..sekarang ni ak memang dalam proses mensenyapkan diri...hee...biar dier rasa kehilangan...
to nizhani..i'll be patience..
to ox_gurl...betul kata ko...dier yg rugi...n sori coz x faham spelling..hee...da biasa taip shortform....
A verycaringbusybody ox_gurl commented @ 12:22 pm 01-02-08
slalunye, first crush, love ni.. susah betol nak lupekan.. lagi2 kalau its unrequited love :))
pasal bf ko plak.. hmmm.. cube find out ape ye yg menyebabkan die jadi mcm tu tetibe.. mesti ade reason.. tapi most of the time, guys mmg mcm ni..mase memula nak, nak sgt2.. bile dah dpt, campak2 macam tu je..
and lastly, pasal kawan.. aku rase mende tu normal.. friends will always look for advantages to be friends with others.. bile cases cani jadi..find out whether its ur fault, if it isn't, die yang rugi.. bukan ko!
btw aku nasihatkan lepas ni spell cantik2 sikit, so macam senang orang nak baca post ko dan boleh kasi advice sepatutnye..aku tadi tekapai2 gak nak baca and fahamkan spelling ko..*dem tetibe rasa tua dowh*ahahahaa
anyway, harap ko besabar dan apeni..good things come to those who wait :)
A budaklostsoul comot commented @ 12:33 am 01-02-08
uhuhu...cik sadteddy, rase utk skrg kalo die ckp centuh biar la dulu. ape kate kosentrat dgn ape yg sadteddy tgh wat skrg. maybe bljr maybe keje maybe jg adek kt umah...try to be someone who can stand by ur own feet...lelaki ni kdg kalo slalu dijaga akan jemu. some of them la...tp kalo once die trase cm kehilangan die pasti akan cpt2 kembali kecuali die sudah tdk ingn kembali...sampai bila nk tunggu? itu trpulng..tp ade org kate lagi byk pahit yg kite dpt skrg lgk byk manis yg akan dtg gk...:) so for now just enjoy...lbh2 lgk sblm mase kawen ni...:D too much thing still want to do rite...be a gud gurl ;)~ tu jk dr comot si bdk termenung jauh ~_~...:P hee owhh utk kwn yg pura2 baek no problem...biar jk die dgn gaya die...janji kite da tau just hati2 jkla :) we dont want to make enemy but we also dont want to be take down by an enemy...:D just stay cool. comot rase thats more cool...:))(mmgler da kate stay cool. ape kah comot :|)
A Storyteller NizHani commented @ 12:32 am 01-02-08
patience bring u a good deal babe. (^^) ~ Niz
A childish sadteddy commented @ 12:53 pm 31-01-08
thanks korg...but what should i do??xkan nak tunggu??smpi bila???