My life's fine as it is, or rather as it used to be; at least. But then maybe I've always been a lonely child, obedient and caring, and until at one point it got to me. Well the last time I talked to my mum she said she didn't know me anymore; I've became detached, indifferent; apathetic. Honestly I don't know, I mean whenever I get to know a person I'd expect so much from her/him and when that someone doesn't match up quite to expectation my heart literally dies a little as in I'll be dissapointed with it and then start to pull myself away from the relationship. Honestly I'm gay but I don't fancy boys that much---or at all---and I like girls better, though never sexually. So does that make me asexual? And yeah I've dated girls and I've dated boys, and a couple of it was rather serious but when it didn't work out I'd just stopped caring, about anything or anyone. It is as if I've lost interest---or faith, whatever---in love and I've stopped believing in humanity.